The Past : Ep2

The past is always the history. Just like what reporter do their works in the newspaper.

A new journey on this silence Saturday morning. achievement is the cure of the pain. Life is about the process, process is the valuable mankind development. I sleep earlier than last time, less thinking, but the noise interrupting me. I started to wonder, what i will be when i out of my life and get instant changes? Can i make it and moving on? I like surprise, but not disaster.

Sunday smile, but i never get to smile back. How silly I am to get extra worry about the think that i shouldn't be. Thanks for the uninvited helping hands. Surprises never end, like a hearty white almond. Washed up, get dress, and ready for the ride.

Someday, i just hate talking. I felt far away from friends, from all of my friends. I just can't speak it right. I notice my weakness but i just can't share it verbally. I hardly express myself. I feel down when i talk to them. Because they are just too high to reach.

Most of the day, skipped class always be my favorite. But going class will be a lot of unexpected stuff happening. I like friends, just not mine random community. Happiness is what we chase, unwanted event is just the consequences that randomly happen. Let chase our dream, catch our dream, share our dream and live as the life goes on.

Pledge life,
Claire

The Past : Ep1

The past of mine... is quite empty and not wonderful, somehow.

April 2009:

• im confused. can't decide to work or back to study. The criticise and those annoying eye sight make me feel so irritating. I am glad to have friend like Terrence, he give me some guidance. I am glad that i can stand beside with my mother, support me so much. I feel guilty that from last time i did not think about others and make my own selfish decision. I know that i somehow did hurt her. I know that i'm not her favorite child or her prouds', but i'm proud that i have her. No matter how hard she try, she just want us to find a way to become a useful person. I promise that i will. You give me life, and i will life up wonderfully.

• being alone in the house is empty. I can't get any socialize program or activities. I'm getting invisible and forgettable. The things that i do in the house is just like a schedule. Wake up, open computer, eat, and sleep. Everyday repeat the same things. My best best freind ever is my Laptop even HE is not expensive and look extraordinary. But at least HE is my good companion. Maple-ing whole day doesn't make me sick, but it make me feel more enrichment and i get all my friends there even i never see them. I can just have FUN with friends and there are really good friends. Getting real friends, i do mean REAL existing friends, is ain't no fun anymore. Owns benefits, what in their heads is what will they get and how much they own. Is all about this, live with no value. What they want is just victory and not the enjoyment in the life being.

Life is not that meaningless. Is just what you think about it. when it is not ok, the true friends will make you feel better. If you are a true friend, just don't runaway.

Regards,

Claire

Popiah Day~

super veggie popiah!!!!

is so warm and nice~
it will be my 1st bite!!!!

minced meat and veggie popiah!

woohoo~ eat while is still HOT!!!

damn nice VEGGIE POPIAH!!!

carrot and veggie~ this popiah is melting my heart!

get ready to be eaten by CLAIRE!!!! wahaha

self made POPIAH!!!

wahahaha.... eating those incredible nice popiah!!! i feel so happy today~ can eat popiah!!! my house still have a lot... hahhaa... come my house if you want... wakakkaa

Can't EAT ENOUGH!,
Claire

Making Signature for X-COZ FORUM!

i make this signature for the forum.... x-coz... will i make this i think got quite long ler... i think i statified with this... haha... then i try to put it... but WTH!!! because my level not enough high... then i cant put picture... sob~ is very sad.... i hope can use in the future!!!

The Day We Sing K~

Last Friday... 10 of April~ yeap... is in the night time....
We sing until so syok!!!

-The Kim Choo unlimited taking photo~ she is making love with the camera... hahahaha....
-Mei teng ler.... didn't song that much~ but i think she enjoy....
-Shuk Ling ler.... make a lot of funny move.... until we cant sing properly.... lolx...

we going back that time is 3am.... my fren tot im going clubbing tim when i say 3am.... is really funny... there is some sensor part when we at there... hahahhaa.... wanna know? ok... i let you all know... We stand on the sofa and jump and sing... the waiter outside saw us... hahaha...

really donno why no ppl post we go chiong k... but really thx to SL that belanja us... XD

Regards,
Claire

Boring~

i am totally freak out with the boring life i having now... it was so not cool and i was going to be freak out of myself. of cause i did not freak out... i go to movie download site download 2 movie which is mean girl and bride war.... is pretty funny thought. then i watch 3 movie today, feng yun animation... wow is cool and the other 2 is the movie i downloaded. doing some smudge work, finally i remember what mei teng said to me yesterday. Then i do some art work with photoshop. I name it vivid butterfly, don't ask me why i name it, i don'teven have the idea why i name it like this.

well, then i put the vivid butterfly art work in into blog name x-coz where all my mix's event friends is there. But i hope they did not see it... because i feel that is quite lame... they usually won't find out... kekeke...

actually im quite proud of myself cause i still have the thinking to help other do assignment while now im not studying. it is fun to help people. it was yesterday, that this thing happen. my cousin ask help from me, and he is study business. ofcause i agree to help him althought im not a business student. then luckily is all "briefly discuss" question. I am good at that, maybe. i study awhile what the question, then i use bout 3 hours to finish it. I think im good, but i hope the answer is correct.

after finish cousin's assignment, my sister, nicole ask for my help. HELL YEA!!! im helping her. Just some typing work. i do it fast and clean. Now i am thinking that would someone employ me as a typist... im good... haha...

well finally... i blogging here... with smell yea smile when i post it... you bet i'll do it... cos i really will do it... IM NOT MEAN~

RE-gard,
Claire

Eternal Flame

Close your eyes,
give me your hand,
darling.
Do you feel my heart beating,
do you understand.
Do you feel the same,
am I only dreaming.
Is this burning an eternal flame.
I believe it's meant to be,
darling.
I watch you when you are sleeping ,
Do you belong to me.
you feel the same,
am I only dreaming.
Or is this burning an eternal flame.
Say my name,
sun shines through the rain.
A whole life so lonely,
and then you come and ease the pain.
I don't want to lose this feeling.
Say my name,
sun shines through the rain.
A whole life so lonely,
and then you come and ease the pain.
I don't want to lose this feeling.
Close your eyes,
give me your hand.
Do you feel my heart beating,
do you understand.
Do you feel the same,
am I only dreaming.
Is this burning an eternal flame.
do you understand.
am I only dreaming.
Is this burning an eternal flame.
do you understand.
Do you feel the same,
am I only dreaming.
Is this burning an eternal flame.


Now i have some feeling like this song... I guess it was wrong. I don't know why i guess i was wrong, maybe is the others word that i convicted, not my own feeling~

Confuse,
Claire