The Past : Ep2

The past is always the history. Just like what reporter do their works in the newspaper.

A new journey on this silence Saturday morning. achievement is the cure of the pain. Life is about the process, process is the valuable mankind development. I sleep earlier than last time, less thinking, but the noise interrupting me. I started to wonder, what i will be when i out of my life and get instant changes? Can i make it and moving on? I like surprise, but not disaster.

Sunday smile, but i never get to smile back. How silly I am to get extra worry about the think that i shouldn't be. Thanks for the uninvited helping hands. Surprises never end, like a hearty white almond. Washed up, get dress, and ready for the ride.

Someday, i just hate talking. I felt far away from friends, from all of my friends. I just can't speak it right. I notice my weakness but i just can't share it verbally. I hardly express myself. I feel down when i talk to them. Because they are just too high to reach.

Most of the day, skipped class always be my favorite. But going class will be a lot of unexpected stuff happening. I like friends, just not mine random community. Happiness is what we chase, unwanted event is just the consequences that randomly happen. Let chase our dream, catch our dream, share our dream and live as the life goes on.

Pledge life,
Claire

The Past : Ep1

The past of mine... is quite empty and not wonderful, somehow.

April 2009:

• im confused. can't decide to work or back to study. The criticise and those annoying eye sight make me feel so irritating. I am glad to have friend like Terrence, he give me some guidance. I am glad that i can stand beside with my mother, support me so much. I feel guilty that from last time i did not think about others and make my own selfish decision. I know that i somehow did hurt her. I know that i'm not her favorite child or her prouds', but i'm proud that i have her. No matter how hard she try, she just want us to find a way to become a useful person. I promise that i will. You give me life, and i will life up wonderfully.

• being alone in the house is empty. I can't get any socialize program or activities. I'm getting invisible and forgettable. The things that i do in the house is just like a schedule. Wake up, open computer, eat, and sleep. Everyday repeat the same things. My best best freind ever is my Laptop even HE is not expensive and look extraordinary. But at least HE is my good companion. Maple-ing whole day doesn't make me sick, but it make me feel more enrichment and i get all my friends there even i never see them. I can just have FUN with friends and there are really good friends. Getting real friends, i do mean REAL existing friends, is ain't no fun anymore. Owns benefits, what in their heads is what will they get and how much they own. Is all about this, live with no value. What they want is just victory and not the enjoyment in the life being.

Life is not that meaningless. Is just what you think about it. when it is not ok, the true friends will make you feel better. If you are a true friend, just don't runaway.

Regards,

Claire