April 2009:
- im confused. can't decide to work or back to study. The criticise and those annoying eye sight make me feel so irritating. I am glad to have friend like Terrence, he give me some guidance. I am glad that i can stand beside with my mother, support me so much. I feel guilty that from last time i did not think about others and make my own selfish decision. I know that i somehow did hurt her. I know that i'm not her favorite child or her prouds', but i'm proud that i have her. No matter how hard she try, she just want us to find a way to become a useful person. I promise that i will. You give me life, and i will life up wonderfully.
- being alone in the house is empty. I can't get any socialize program or activities. I'm getting invisible and forgettable. The things that i do in the house is just like a schedule. Wake up, open computer, eat, and sleep. Everyday repeat the same things. My best best freind ever is my Laptop even HE is not expensive and look extraordinary. But at least HE is my good companion. Maple-ing whole day doesn't make me sick, but it make me feel more enrichment and i get all my friends there even i never see them. I can just have FUN with friends and there are really good friends. Getting real friends, i do mean REAL existing friends, is ain't no fun anymore. Owns benefits, what in their heads is what will they get and how much they own. Is all about this, live with no value. What they want is just victory and not the enjoyment in the life being.
Life is not that meaningless. Is just what you think about it. when it is not ok, the true friends will make you feel better. If you are a true friend, just don't runaway.
Regards,
Claire
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